Today, I was watching Revenge of The Sith, cause when am i not watching star wars lately? I had a really good day today. I didn't overdo it, i made a batch of soap, did a few loads of laundry, unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher... it was a calm, chill day for the most part. But the quote above got me.... and tears just streamed down my face. I guess i never really let that sink in until i started facing my own mortality. i cried and cried during that scene.... not that i'm giving up the fight... it makes me want to fight harder, be a better person, and get better... and if i dont, i guess i'll crosss that bridge when i get there... but as for now, i'm just going to be the best me i can be every single day. and if that includes multiple pheo attacks, i'm just going to have to learn to not worry about it. its going to happen often.... and deal with it as it comes.... i am not going to lie, its HARD to try to remain calm, its hard to not think about the next time the doorbell rings i could just stroke out. but, its a lesson ive got to try to get into practicing i believe. stop worrying about things that are out of my hands. if i have a bad day; i just have a bad day.... now, im going to try to nap and have another best day ever for that the new me can have tomorrow.....
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